It is rather fitting and proper, that on the day that the fourth Uranus/Pluto Square is exact, your Avatars of Mind and Self conjoin. Mercury is halfway through his Retrograde and passes between you and the Sun now, and it is like a "New Moon" for your Mind and Thought-Forms, and the answers that you have been seeking may have just been offered up for your consideration.
But you will need to be Humble, you will have to be Self-Reflective and you will need to be Fearless if you wish to see beyond this Plane of Reality which holds you in its thrall. For though what you perceive is "Real" it is a Maya too, and you will need to look beyond appearances to discover the Foundations of Truth and your Greater Reality.
You are moving through that most profoundly deep and mysterious Realm of Scorpio now, and there is so much you will discover, and yet there is much that is, may and must remain hidden. For behind/beyond whatever level of perception you have come to, there is still much, much further you will eventually go...So your first step is to step back and approach this mystery with Humility, to accept and understand that whatever you now understand to be the Real is still limited. But that is the way of it, this Path of Awakening you walk is circuitous and spiraling, and you have indeed drawn closer to Truth and that is good, but you will be limited by and remain in some form of Maya too.
You are fired by your passion, to rip away the Veil of Appearances and so see the greater truth about your Unions. But with Mercury retrograde, your real need and opportunity is to re-examine yourself, to question the nature of your unions from Within. So your second step is to be Self-Reflective, to turn the Laser-Like Illuminations of Scorpio back upon yourself. For if you do you will be able to do what is most necessary to your self-fulfillment, to better know yourself. You will understand that in order for you to reach the Union that you seek, you must know what you have to offer, discern what you might be willing to sacrifice and come to see more truly what you seek from the other too. The only path is this, the Path of Self-Mastery; the only Injunction you need follow, "Know Thyself".
If you truly seek to find the way to the Beloved, if you wish to have your Faith restored by this Rebirth and Renewal found in Communion, then there is one final step you will and must encounter, you must Face your Fear, you must strive to become Fearless. With Mercury retrograde, you will come to see that there is only one true obstacle and challenge in every Lesson of Life, and that upon this circuitous path of Self-unfoldment your one true "enemy" will always be...Fear. Your Fear is made from your self-cast shadows, those echoes of past failures and losses of yesteryear that bear down upon your present hopes and dreams. And if you yield to them, if you give way and let them take hold, then all of what might have been, this promise of reaching beyond yourself and truly becoming one with another may be lost again...but this need not be so.
You must choose as to whether you will be bound back by what was or to believe in what might yet be. You can use the Power of Mercury Retrograde to discern what formed these shadows, of how or why the bridge between yourself and another was not made or became broken. You can learn from your pain and choose to harvest this Spiritual Lesson which is a Gift for you, for this is how you will truly know what to do or not do now. You will take out your "Sword of Severance", as you harvest the meanings and messages that you have earned and leave behind the rest, and then you will turn and face your new day dawning with Faith and Courage and Love.
Yes, Mercury Retrograde is a Blessing, and in Scorpio he offers you this Promise. He offers the Gift of Insight which enables you to reach across and become one with the beloved by first bringing you closer to your own true Self.
You will move with Grace in Humility...
You will seek your Truth in Self-Reflection...
You will find your Love by Fearing Not.